post CT

common tests have ended, and so is World Cup (at least to me).. things are coming back to how it used to be, which is quite a sad thing.. i juz hope so much for these 2 years to end faster.. there will be no more sufferring, no more worries, at least for a certain period of time.. This morning, while walking to school, feeling terribly jaded after watching WC and high fever , I suddenly told Tu: "I find no meaning in life." Well, I regretted having said that right after i said it. I shouldn't let those thoughts pour out during this period.. Getting flu virus from Phoebe I guess, my whole yesterday wasn't pleasant at all, yet, the temptation of watching WC semifinal still won over.. The fever amazingly disappeared though.. But Germany lost :(.. I dunno why I like Germany but I've been supporting them since WC 2002.. And every year, I had to go through this feeling when they lost.. Not a fan of football, I just like to watch those last few important matches.. And the amazing impression about football that I have had is that when you wholeheartedly support a team no matter what, the final results will really have a deep impact on your feeling afterwards. I cried when they scored, and I was shocked when they lost. Can you imagine spending 120 minutes staring at the screen, having heart attack a few times and all of a sudden, last 2 minutes, what you get is 2-nil for the opponent?!? Prayers didn't work anymore, the shock came so suddenly.. Ppl might say that Germany is not as good as many other teams, and they can only win by sheer luck or thx to biased referee.. Well, PROBABLY!! But isn't that how football is supposed to be?? You dunno what's gonna happen in the next moment.. And everything needs luck..

I realize that I have wasted so much time lately doing nonsense stuff.. Time really flies but somehow I don't know how to appreciate it.. i must always wait until the last minute so as to have the inspiration to do things.. Haha CT has ended but promo is coming, as well as so many other things happening at the same time.. juz handed up exco form, gotta give speech next week and go through interview also.. haiz i dun think i can get the VP post..

Our PW is so screwed, we did absolutely nothing during the holiday.. Surveys have not been printed yet, we haven't sent the request letter for interview urghhh.. Am I a very bad group leader!?? :( :( :( anyway, I must push through this period.. It's short but terribly tiring I must say.. Sometimes I wish I could have more time to do certain things, but at the same time, I hope all this will end much much faster.. huh, i'm contradicting myself..

We're gonna get back all the papers very soon.. And the possibility of me failing some subjects is rather high.. Maths was okay, but I expected 10 marks higher than what I actually get.. So i also dunno what might become of all my other papers.. Anyway, each exam is juz an experience of the real thing and I hope things will turn brighter as time progresses :)

There is actually a lot more meaning in life than you might think :)