horrible day!

back from the orientation weeks... we're starting school with a few lectures and most of the time we hang around the school and do nothing much although things have started to pile up =( I'm juz not in the mood to study at all.. juz 1 more week of school then I'll get to enjoy life again.. Now I know that JC life is tough (like Maths for ex, within 2 lectures, we have to finish a whole tutorial of about twenty smthg questions, they want us all to become Maths freaks isn't it, crazy), but I'll try my very best, and of course not to miss out on the fun too =) gotta take up a sport soon and start training myself.. oh need to change my lifestyle also.. will try to eat healthy stuff and have enuf sleep... haizz thinking of the horrible moment that I had to go through today, juz wanna blame myself.. hope things are getting alright with me.. coz anyway, I still have to take care of my own self for the next few years.. When i'm stressed or when i'm juz too engrossed in doing something, i juz dun care about my health =( and then have to face some consequences at the end of the day .. It would have been different if mom and dad are here to urge me to do something about my health, like eat more fruits, drink milk and juice, force me to sleep early.. Hmm i've realized that it's not easy to live independently hehe =).. gotta change.. think i've got some ideas in mind already.. Well, it's time for dinner =)

I wanna cry so badly.. I hate this feeling.. hate it whenever I have to think about it.. I'll do whatever I can to forget.. I need to focus..