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Haiz what's wrong with school computer? can't even open the damn Friendster page.. Hehe in Bytz now, going to have Maths test in half an hour.. =(god, I'm so bored, everybody is like doing maths right now.. That's why I ran away =)).. Ok shall stop here.. Gonna eat lunch first...

oh no

yesterday was FUN! Quite fun actually haha! During the stressful weeks, I totally forgot about booking the function room for 2/9, that's why 1 day before the actual day, I was rushing like crazy and they only allowed us to celebrate from 10 to 1am.. Then yesterday, the most stupid part that I had to do was running around, calling dunno how many people juz to collect money to buy food and drinks.. And everybody was all like "NO MONEY!!!".. Fine! They all wanna join the celebration and yet, didn't noe how to make things easier for me!!!! The next moment, Tu gave me 50S$, so I decided to go and buy the birthday cake first.. All de way to Orchard hixhix.. By the time I got back, it was already 10 and everybody was still out of sight.. Haha..
Anyway, the celebration was fun.. While looking at the red flag with a yellow star rising, we sang our national anthem, shouted the pledge and.. clap :)).. Then we blowed the candles and ate the cake.. It was a very small cake actually, but I thought it would be fun to eat like that, reminiscing the days of 1945, so I bought it haha.. However, yes however, 25 people is really a very large number and by the time we formed a circle big enough for everybody to look at the cake, the cake now was juz like THAP RUA at the centre of Sword Lake (or rather, at the centre of Hanoi) =)).. Damn funny!!!
Then after eating, we played the "terrorism" game, AGAIN!!! The game goes like this: we number among ourselves first.. and then someone will start the game by shouting out a number randomly, the person who has juz been called muz shout out another number before the 2 people next to him/her are fast enough to cover his mouth and stop him from shouting.. This person will have to forfeit if the number he/she shouts out is either the one next to him or the one who has juz called his number.. Yah the game goes on like this until there're about 5 people forfeiting haha.. My senior was damn fast.. I couldn't have time to react or say anything except for screaming =)), damn fun! Then those forfeiters will have to do what other people want them to do :D.. Blah blah blah.. this part was quite stupid hix..
After that, we paired up, one person carried her/his partners and fighted against other pairs.. Hmm Va^n carried me on her back, we were both ready to fight.. But, the other pair was too strong, 2 guys :D.. They pushed me off my partner and I fell down, juz like a HEROINE hehe.. But my whole body is aching a lot right now... slept for almost 12 hours today.. deprived of handphone some more.. BORED!!!!!

last day in school

what the hell!!! I juz pressed wrongly and the whole damn long post is gone.. =((
Anyway, I'm in school now for the passion pursuit day.. Hmm attended the DJ and MTV session which was not much different from the one during enrichment week.. wasted my time.. After that we went to the book fair.. all the good books were gone by that time :((.. Then I juz grabbed 4 random books for only 2 dollars.. That's quite a good deal though.. And now I'm in class, using someone's laptop, listening to the limited music library in my school account hehe.. Gosh they are playing BRIDGE again!!!!!!!!! I still couldn't know how the hell to grasp the first part of this freaking game man, bidding... Everytime they explain it to me, I'm like WTH??? Haha am I really that stupid??? Actually I'm not that interested in this kind of gambling though.. IT'S ILLEGAL!!! Haha, Lee Ping, you hear me??? YOU!!! INSULTED ME JUZ NOW!!! B-) LAUGHING AT ME LIKE THAT!!! GO EAT SHIT!!! Haha..
Anyway, I'm thinking of joining Band next year, should I?? should I?? Stupid Lee Ping, who told you to be unfaithful to your school's band and seniors?? huh huh?? But if I join, muz teach me kae!!!! Ask ur old frenz also :p
Hehe okie, gotta go now.. Meet MOE for the air-ticket issue.. Yay, 2 more months only.. Bye..

Oh yah, 1 more thing.. HAPPY VIETNAM'S NATIONAL DAY!!!!!!

hello

hello I'm back.. after all those weeks I had to suffer.. but I went through them all.. I knew I could do it.. and I was right... no matter what they say.. no matter what they think about me.. whether I'm "blur" or such a coward or whatever, it's up to them... I know my own self more than anyone else in this world.. but when there's something gained, something else is lost.. that's true.. all those efficiency, responsibility... for nothing.. exhausted.. suffer from insomnia.. problems with best frenz.. classmates become more and more irritating :((.. inferior... lost... was my decision to come here a good choice, I'm still trying to find the answer.. then they say that I am a directionless person, I'm a whatever freak, I never think when I say something.. well come on, juz leave me alone.. mind ur own business.. I need more time.. those words are not gonna work it out for me.. only make me feel depressed even more.. wanna see my mom so badly.. wanna talk to her more than ever before.. but I'm scared I'll break down in front of her.. for the second time.. remind me of last year.. december.. it was raining outside.. and she sat stunned, staring at me.. I really dun want that moment to happen again.. but noone else wanna listen to me anymore..

"In The End"

(It starts with)
One thing, I don ’ t know why
It doesn ’ t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn ’ t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn ' t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn ’ t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn ’ t even matter