disappointed

I guess this is the worst interview that I've ever had in my entire life. I screwed every single part of it. I played like shit and my answers were really out of point. They were long-winded and did not even lead to anything. I guess the reason that I kept talking is because if I din, I wouldn't be able to think of anything else to say, so well I kept on crapping all the way. They didn't ask me much, I did most of the talking. And M's face at that time looked as if she wanted so much to tell straight to my face "I don't want U". Well, all the things that I said was so crappy that I couldn't believe that it actually came out from my mouth. I was so confident before the interview, after hearing from so many ppl that it's okay and the song is very easy, etc.. So I thought that things would juz naturally spurt out from my mouth and well with that who-cares-to-prepare-for-it attitude, I was totally wrong. I'm so disappointed! My playing sucks big time!